Hmmm...

''What's your ambition ?''

When someone asks me this question,

seriously I have no idea & yet,

I do feel kinda stressed.

I would feel like it was so embarrassing that I couldn't say out what I wanna be in my future...

I have lost my direction...

I feel so lost...

But I rather I said ''I haven't have an ambition yet....'' honestly,

instead of saying ''I wanna be a doctor/teacher/lawyer & so & so...''

Like what we used to fill in the blank ''Your ambition : '' 

for homework, information papers or something else during school time since kinder garden... ?

Cause those really aren't my ambition...

What for I said out an ambition which is just really SAYING out from my mouth without any efforts ?!

Once I could say that out,

I should & must put an all-out effort to achieve it !

3 more days, I will be going to my school & register for Form 6.

I've got Science stream,

I know I would stress to death if I didn't switch to Art Stream,

Although Art Stream isn't that easy too !

At least I know that I'm interested with the Visual Art subject.

If I wanna take this subject, 

I have to switch school...alone...

Well, my friends are taking History subject, included my boyfriend.

I know I couldn't & mustn't follow them just because of I don't wanna be alone...

I'm not interested with History subject at all...

And of course I don't wanna be alone either...

However, we won't have two of them in the same time...

Unless, I was really lucky haaa...

Unfortunately, I...am...not ? 

Awww... D:

Form 6 would be the start of journey to my future...

I should take my ''future'' more important than the other things ?

Sigh......

Once I switched school,

I will be apart with my friends & my love, 

*LOL...sounds like very serious...Booo*

of course I know someday we will still do cause impossible we stay in the same school in the entire life.

My mum just told me that,

this would be a good ''test'' for me & my boyfriend.

Well, I agree of it too.

Even I stay in the same school with him, 

taking the same subject with him in Form 6 though I'm not interested with that subject,

one day, we will still going to University & will be apart.

Maybe as the traditional quotes said ''Rather got the shorter pain than the longer pain'' ? LOL

But of course our hearts wouldn't be apart if we could ''passed the test'' :X

Alright, I'm starting to depress hahahaha ._.

OKAY !

STOP STOP STOP !

STOP thinking & worrying further & further about the future since it doesn't arrive yet !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So...

In this two years of Form 6 life,

I think I would figure out what my ''ambition'' is ! ...probably :S

Uhmm..perhaps LOL..

-byii-

Random Update___♥

Hello bloggieee ♥

Sorry that i never freshen you up for such a LONGGGG period :S

Alright, let's have a high speed freshen up XD

Well uhmm, it's 2013 now already..

Yet, I'm still alive :D

I'm stepping into the next stage of my life ♥

-step-by-step- 

I'm still enjoying my dance life of course ♥

I've achieved one of my wish-to-do list on 07th April 2013 : Belly Piercing ♥

Time flies~

It's already 19th April 2013 today.

Within these three & a half months, i've been through kinda lots of stuffs i supposed ? haha :X

My boy has been to PLKN for 3 months ( well actually just two and a half months ) :p

I've been visiting him with his dad nearly every Sunday :)

This is the very first time visiting him with his parents on 13th January 2013 :) ♥

Prepared some healthy salad for him & a failed honey lemon LOL

Both of us could only contact when he got his phone on Friday night or Saturday morning~

Or maybe sometimes when he misses me, he would use camp's public phone call me :)

Or use his friend ''secret mobile phone'' to contact me ♥

It's just too sweet & warm & touching of course ♥

In these months, I do felt like kinda relaxing ?

Actually, when i was making him feel tight, i was actually making myself felt tight indirectly as well.

Now, i do really understand about it :)

Okay, stop for this topic :p

That's more to own privacy hahahaha :p

And then, i've been through the saddest moment on the first day of February :'(

My dearest beloved grandpa has passed away...

He has been suffering in sickness for such a long period...

It's really heartache seeing him suffering like that...

Maybe, this would be a good thing for him...

He finally get rid of suffers...

My mood was really unstable...

It's just too...

Sighh...

But i do understand, in one's life, for sure we'll met ''Born.Old.Sick.Death''

We can only accept, there's no other choices.

Pray for my dearest grandpa & we'll always miss him & love him...we always do ♥

May my dearest, cutest cowboy grandpa Rest in Peace ☮

Next, hmmmm what else to talk about...

In my mind now, only appeared the ''cases'' few days ago haha XD

So, let's talk about 17th April 2013 :)

It's photo shooting day in between my love Ervin & i :)

Thanks lot to my dearest sister WeiSan & her boyfriend TeeMun :D

It's kinda awkward at the first place LOL

But then slowly enjoy it ♥

There're a lot more photos still~ So *stay tune* :D

Really thanks to my love who actually doesn't really like to face the camera,

willing to spent his time & shoot with me just to make me happy ♥

Really appreciate that, thanks baby, i love you ♥

Oh yea, by the way~

I've got iPhone 4 from my dearest cousin sister Yvonne ♥

She gifted me her favorite ♥

Sometimes would kinda feel guilty that she gave me so much, but i gave her so least ><

Thanks dear, really appreciate that lot ! Love you always ♥

I can say that, it was really the very first time i own made a birthday present for her birthday this year ><

She was so touching & cried awww :') 

Love ya ♥

Then, on 17th March 2013 Jane, Kimiko & i get involved in a competition :)

Guess what ?

We've got the most creative prize & CHAMPION :'D ♥

Thanks dear Jane & Kimiko , we worked this out together ♥ 

Lots of lovesss :'3 ♥

I was really burst into happy tears when heard the result while standing on the stage ! 

Oh my god :'D

Thanks to daddy & mummy gave me this life & so i could live my interesting life like now :D 

Love both of you lots ! ♥♥♥♥

MUACKS ! ♥♥♥♥

And thanks to my dear Yvonne cousin sister 

Without you, we'll never turn to a butterfly & always be like a larva hahaha

You're the one who lead us up to all different kind of stages

Thank you for giving so many different kind of experiences & of course memories :)

Love you dear muack muack ♥

And then what else...

Uhmmm...

Oh yeaa !

I've got my SPM result on 21st March 2013 ! :D

I was jumping so high & burst into happy tears once i got it !

I've achieved my 5A's target :')

Well, maybe this meant nothing to those straight A's students

But this meant lots to me ♥

Thanks to all of my teachers who have taught me a lot ♥

Not only in academic but also to be a good individuality ♥

Too bad i've missed out my lovely addmath teacher : Mr Teo D:

He's really a best teacher ever !

Full of loving heart & patience ♥

And luckily, i still got A- for my addmath haha ><

And then....

Hmmmmm...........

Okayyy, i'm blank right now :X

So, i shall stop my fingers dancing on my keyboard ♥

Byeeee :) ♥

*Been through lots, seen so much news & heard lots of issues,

realized that i'm just too blessed ♥

Shouldn't ask for more, appreciate real much ♥

-byii-