''What's your ambition ?''
When someone asks me this question,
seriously I have no idea & yet,
I do feel kinda stressed.
I would feel like it was so embarrassing that I couldn't say out what I wanna be in my future...
I have lost my direction...
I feel so lost...
But I rather I said ''I haven't have an ambition yet....'' honestly,
instead of saying ''I wanna be a doctor/teacher/lawyer & so & so...''
Like what we used to fill in the blank ''Your ambition : ''
for homework, information papers or something else during school time since kinder garden... ?
Cause those really aren't my ambition...
What for I said out an ambition which is just really SAYING out from my mouth without any efforts ?!
Once I could say that out,
I should & must put an all-out effort to achieve it !
3 more days, I will be going to my school & register for Form 6.
I've got Science stream,
I know I would stress to death if I didn't switch to Art Stream,
Although Art Stream isn't that easy too !
At least I know that I'm interested with the Visual Art subject.
If I wanna take this subject,
I have to switch school...alone...
Well, my friends are taking History subject, included my boyfriend.
I know I couldn't & mustn't follow them just because of I don't wanna be alone...
I'm not interested with History subject at all...
And of course I don't wanna be alone either...
However, we won't have two of them in the same time...
Unless, I was really lucky haaa...
Unfortunately, I...am...not ?
Awww... D:
Form 6 would be the start of journey to my future...
I should take my ''future'' more important than the other things ?
Sigh......
Once I switched school,
I will be apart with my friends & my love,
*LOL...sounds like very serious...Booo*
of course I know someday we will still do cause impossible we stay in the same school in the entire life.
My mum just told me that,
this would be a good ''test'' for me & my boyfriend.
Well, I agree of it too.
Even I stay in the same school with him,
taking the same subject with him in Form 6 though I'm not interested with that subject,
one day, we will still going to University & will be apart.
Maybe as the traditional quotes said ''Rather got the shorter pain than the longer pain'' ? LOL
But of course our hearts wouldn't be apart if we could ''passed the test'' :X
Alright, I'm starting to depress hahahaha ._.
OKAY !
STOP STOP STOP !
STOP thinking & worrying further & further about the future since it doesn't arrive yet !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So...
In this two years of Form 6 life,
I think I would figure out what my ''ambition'' is ! ...probably :S
Uhmm..perhaps LOL..
-byii-